I think this is such a silly holiday. Why should anyone need an excuse to tell someone you love them?

Remember when we all posted EXACTLY what we got for Christmas on our LJs?

Growing up blows :)

Merry Christmas!

I thought I would post since it has been brought to my attention that I haven't written since May....

Well here is an itemized list of my life.

• I am engaged :) I know this probably deserves a post of its own, but it happened on October 11th and it was very romantic/cute. I have a gorgeous ring and the date is 8/11/2012
• I am the President of my sorority
• I can't believe this semester is over... only 2 more years lol
• I got accepted into the education program here at Central
• I have rediscovered dunkaroos
• I am getting good grades in all my classes
• I have gone to Taco Bell/McDonalds way more than one person ever should
• I take naps at my sorority house every chance I get
• I am going to LIVE in my sorority house next year with some of the coolest girls ever
• I am a student manager at my work and I adore it
• My schedule next semester WON'T suck
• I will be working all Christmas break, but I will be getting a sweet ass pay check
• I am still super close with my mom, which is awesome :)

That's all of the exciting things :)

I thought everyone knew you got a free slurpee on July 11th at 7-11...






apparently not.

Florida in 2 days... I cannot wait. I need a break from real life. This whole 23 credit deal is rough. After SB I'm down to 15! (8 week online Macomb classes are done) However, I did get some good news recently... I will be starting Student Manager Training after SB for the late night snack store that I've been slaving away at for the past 2 years. Holler for a $1 raise. Oh well. I have 3 exams this week, but I'm not stressing. Sorority life is fantastic. We have 6 wonderful new girls, I think I did a good job a planning recruitment events. I've finally found people I can trust. (famous last words, right?) Only 7 more weeks of school and then summer. Only 2 months and 29 days until I move into my first apartment... I'm nervous, but excited. Life is swell.

so.... after reading Mar's livejournal...I decided to read MY first entry. Now this was my second livejournal...I was apparently tired of the name of my first one (Melissa88)  so I got a new one...the previous one has been deleted and purged :(. This journal is almost 5 years old. My first entry was written on the day Chris asked me out for the first time...holy crap that was 5 years ago?! Amazing how fast the time has gone and how much things have changed.

Almost done with this semester...thank God. I'm ready for a new one. Only 5 months and 15 days until we move into the apartment. 142 days until I move out of the dorms... and only 62 days until Leo and I celebrate our one year anniversary. This is sad... but Leo has been my longest relationship... now I'm sure some of you are thinking..."uh Melissa weren't you and Chris together for like 4 years?" and to that I would have to tell you that Chris and I only dated officially for 4 months the first time 3 months the second time and 7 months the third time... so 14 months total in a span of 4 years. That is only 29% of those 4 years (can you tell I have a math final tomorrow?) It's very exciting to have a stable relationship.

And I'm done :)

one more fucking day of work...AHHHHHH

I am so happy with my relationship right now, it's completely ridiculous. I spent the whole weekend in West Branch with Leo. We celebrated our 6 month anniversary.

I got there on Friday and we went out to dinner then we shopped a little bit. We went into Zales at the mall and I tried on a $19,000 engagement ring. It was absolutely gorgeous. We rented movies and cuddled until we fell asleep.

On Saturday we woke up and went to the Victorian Art Fair, which is a Macomb Country craft show on crack. It was a lot of fun walking around looking at everything. We got our chariacture done, which is sooo amazing. After that we went swimming in Peach Lake, came home, and cooked dinner together. It was adorable. We watched a movie and spent the night in each other's arms.

Sunday we just laid around until lunch time. Then after lunch I came home.

It was an incredible weekend that was desperately needed. I can't say that this was an easy summer, and I know it's not over. It has been so hard trying to work things out over the phone and remain close to one another when we're 150 miles a part, but it has been worth it. 10 more days a part (8 days of work for each of us) and then back to school we go, which will be better. I know it's going to be hard to balance everything this year, but I think we can do it. I am so happy with my life right now I can barely contain myself.

It's very funny to think of where I was one year ago. Things have changed so much. Some of those things make me sad, some make me happy, and others I feel indifferent towards. I was dating Chris a year ago. We had offically been together for 2 days. I was still seeing all of the kids I graduated with. I didn't work all the time. I thought things couldn't get any better. But it's weird because things just keep getting better. Growing up is funny. Does it make me sad to think about the past?... sort of, but I can't look back anymore. I need to push forward and be strong. So many great things are coming. This mentoring postion is amazing. I learned so much from those kids. I love it. I will be living on my own in an apartment in one year. I will be taking more major/minor specific classes this year. My dorm and my roommmates are going to be amazing. The boys living next door = amazing. Things are going to be great. Not that they are bad now. I just wish I saw more of my friends this summer, but between work and family obligations I've been really busy. I want to make sure everyone knows I haven't forgotten about them. My daily horoscope for Friday is: "Hoping and wishing for something won't make it so- you have to put in the work." I really need to take that advice. I am ALMOST done with my summer class and I need to just keep working to keep my grade up. I have one more week. I have two more days left at Pine Ridge and then it's peace out senior citizens. I love my residents to death, but I can't stand the working environment anymore. I am excited. I am ready for the challenges. Bring em on!

Wow I haven't written in this in forever. But my life is actually going pretty swell. I have been having a very busy summer. Right now I'm actually in Flint doing a 2 week summer institute for my mentoring program I'm in. The program is called CMU2010 and it's to increase diversity on CMU's campus. 15 mentors (I am one of them) are partnered with students from Flint Public Schools to help them on their journey to college. It's been very educational and lots of fun so far. I am learning just as much from my mentees and my fellow mentors as I am teaching.
I have been working on the weekends and doing my online classes during the week. I absolutely adore online classes. I can do things as I want to and I can do my homework sitting in my pajamas on my bed. It's wonderful. When I get home from this institute I start a full time babysitting job. Yay!
My 19th Birthday was pretty uneventful. I spent the weekend with the love of my life, Leo John. We went out on a date and saw Knocked Up. SOOOOO funny! My family hung out a lot and they adore Leo so all is good.
Leo and I have been seeing each other as much as possible, which is quite a lot actually. It makes me smile. He's perfect for me. We are so different and we accentuate the positive things in one another instead of bringing out the negatives. I am so happy.
Life is good and if you want picture proof go check out my myspace or facebook :)

It is so weird being home. This morning my mom walked into my room to turn off the TV and I thought it was Kari... adjusting is weird.

Well..it's finals week. I feel like a fraud because I only have two finals, but I plan on studying hard. I have two study sessions to go to today.

As much as this school year has sucked, I have made so many great friends and I've met a good man to boot. I think that outweighs all of the trash people have talked (and are still talking). I wish I could say it didn't hurt for people to spread lies and rumors, but it did. I am only human. But I am passed that now... They are just mean unhappy people.

It's going to be so hard to say goodbye. The last day of almost every school year, I have cried. Ha this year I will most likely sob. I know I know I plan on seeing you all this summer, and I really hope we will, but it's going to be such a transition. I know that we'll never forget each other and the laughs we've shared (or the fights... whichever). We've become our own little dysfunctional CMU family that we can always count on. That makes me smile.

Love you all

Summer here we come!

Things are swell...Really they are. I have made up with most everyone I had been previously fighting with...well everyone that matters; former roommates, future roommates, old friends, new friends, ex boyfriends, former enemies... life is good. It feels as if a weight has been lifted off of my shoulders.
Also, I think my grades are going to be ok... I don't think I am going to fail out of college anymore.
I am happy
I am excited
I am... life

So I was driving home from my friend Jamie's tonight and as I was coming over the 21 Mile road overpass, I slowed down (like always), and I felt a cool breeze (my windows were closed and the heat was on). I looked over and I swear I saw Haley sitting in my passenger seat. So I just kept driving. I drove carefully and as some of you may know I have to pass Haley's house to get to mine. Well at the stop sign by her house I completely stopped and I felt the cool breeze again and I looked over and no one was there. I guess it just felt like I picked her up and took her home. I could only wish someone would have done that for her that fateful night. Love ya Haley 0:)

It's Easter! I am home until tomorrow morning then back to Mount Pleezy it is. Only 3 more weeks of school and then 3 days of exams. I can not wait!

I applied for a mentoring job for the next 2.5 years. I would be mentoring Flint juniors throughout the rest of their high school years and their first year of college. This excites me. Everything I do with them (trips and stuff like that) is covered by this grant that CMU has received. Plus I get paid to do it. I have an interview tomorrow and I hope it goes swimmingly. Wish me luck!

As far as my personal-ish life goes. Everything isn't how I want it to be, but it's getting there. I am trying to be patient, but that's not one of my strongest virtues. But, everything happens for a reason, right?

My sorority is having our formal (prom) in 2 weeks. Jamie is going with me so it doesn't create anymore conflict. I bought a dress and I have accessories already. I love it. Hopefully that night goes smoothly.

I am very excited for next year. Celani 102 here I come! HOPEFULLY I will have a car... I think this will make my life a hell of a lot better.

Recently, I have been talking to someone via myspace. Her and I really went to elementary school/junior high together, but we never got a long. For some reason I decided to message her and tell her how I actually admired her and how I never disliked her. She messaged me back and now we're understanding more about one another. That is good because for some reason I STILL did not like the fact that she didn't like me.

Last night was StuCo bowling. It was SUPPOSED to be the 06 grads and the current StuCO kids... well this didn't turn out so well. It was myself, Colleen Gitter, Molly Hunsberger, Alex Vamvas, Kim Hewelt (?), Garrett Komatz (???), Alex Pass, my Jamie, and Jake (who is still on council). It was very random, but I enjoyed catching up with everyone. Needless to say, I am GLAD I am out of high school.

I have been hearing that people have been saying mean things about me at Utica. I wish I could say I didn't care, but I do. PLEASE KEEP MY NAME OUT OF YOUR MOUTH. I do not go to Utica anymore. I do not care what or who you do. So please stop causing drama and trying to bring me in to it. I have made decisions that maybe you didn't like, but things are ok now with all of those people... So stay out of it :)

Hey guess what class of 2006...we're almost done with our first year of college...Yikes!

What you got what you got in your hand? - a father said to son
I got the whole world here Daddy between my fingers and my thumb
Well you take care of it please - it’s the only one
Well it would take me a lifetime old man to undo what you’ve done
To undo what you’ve done

Oh come on now boy think what would Jesus do?
He shake his head like an angry mother - spoke the boy and say I did what I could do
But you take care of it please – it’s the only one you got
And it’d take ten lifetimes boy to undo what I’ve done

Boy shrugged walked away
The man stood and watched as he was leaving
Boy just walked away
The man stood alone thinking

One hand is bleeding and the other hand holds a gun
While everything is open everything is shut down, down, down
Begin to ending is really just a go round and round and round
As I stand here - the ground beneath is nothing more than one point of view

What you got what you got in your hand? Your secret’s safe with me
Well I found the truth friend let me whisper in your ear
Take good care of it please - it’s the only one there is
Can I twist it please can I give it just a little twist

Boy shrugged walked away
The man stood and watched as he was leaving
Boy just walked away
The man stood there twisting

One hand is bleeding and the other hand holds a gun
Everything is open now everything is shut down, down, down
No one is holding even if you even if your sure
You never know it all the ground beneath is nothing more than my point of view

Boy shrugged walked away
The man stood and watched as he was leaving
Boy just walked away
The man stood there twisting

One hand is open and the other hand holds the gun
Everything is open now is everything coming down, down, down
No one is hoping even if you even if you know
You never know it all - nothing more than, nothing more than my point of view

Boy shrugged walked away
The man stood and watched as he was leaving
The man stood there twisting

Raven - Dave Matthews Band